Week 3 falling behind – dialogue brain vs nervous system

Don’t give up. Scale it down. Stay consistent. Get back to it.


What do you do?  Do you give up?  HELL NO!  YOU DOWN SIZE the time making a smaller chunk consistency is the mantra – This is about growing habit and taking action. and the reward is the results and ROI.  What is my ROI great content to build on  for something that I can EARN from the experiences. Look how much writing  I have been doing.  It doesn’t mater if it junk it is a starting place.  It is growing because of consistency A ONE STEP ACTION.  It grows incrementally ( grossly+/- could add up to 150 minutes a week). It doesn’t matter if I wrote 5 or 10 minutes and had to scale it down it all adds up and at the end of the month there is bound to be something  there that can be turned into GOLD.  Not only that but the habit building of 1 step action at a time rolls over into the rest of my work flow and productivity. I become that much more productive in less time across the board.  I could probably save a 2 weeks of work a year.

Yes the next step maybe to schedule the time in my work flow calendar. As if I didn’t think of that before. Too much pressure. I am still a little freedom fighter and battle up against lists, to dos time constraints.  Yes I have trained myself to use them, keep them because in the end they bring me more freedom and less chaos.  But there is a part of nervous system that has to digest and come to the idea on its own. It has to say I can do this without scheduling in.  My smarty brain says no schedule it in dumb ass.  Nervous system says: ” don’t tell me what to do, I can do it how I want”. Brain: “Ok dumb ass….don’t come crying to me when “I told you so”.  Brain “Stubborn bad ass when will she learn and just do it the easy way, she has to make it hard on herself,how long will she do this for?” Before she succumbs to making it a valuable enough to go in the work flow calendar?

Sure I had a few slip ups a few days without posting.  Life happens it gets in the way sort of it made me tired.  I didn’t want to.  Some feelings of guilt because I set up a challenge for myself all in and excited, so determined.  But the reality is things happen, have compassion for self. Get back up and make an adjust grow the mental strength and fortitude without hitting your head against the wall.  Without the self loathing because that gets you no where. Brain ” writing is valuable put in the work flow calendar, along with time for yoga, and Melt and passive brain fitness, meditation posting on FB group that you keep pushing off and filling the time conveniently with time wasters. ”  What are you waiting for?  Look at what you can engage in and how you would feel in your body if you took care of yourself in this way?

Still some resistance but making head way.  The brain is right in this instance.  The big question is why is not considered valuable enough?  Why is other people’s stuff more valued than mine.  Why do I leave myself out of the calendar? topic for another post…

Ok 20 minutes – i forgot to set the timer that is part of assignment.  Idiot – dumb ass – I won’t give up.  Back at it again tomorrow maybe in the calendar.

Inconsistency vs Consistency

Excuses seem so valid keeping me from my goal. I REFUSE…

Week two much harder around growing consistency with my writing habit.  However that being said I accomplished so much  and was able to fire off to Nikki some decent not perfect content to build the theme of the website brand.  I really excited about that.  Of course there is much more work to do but I will celebrate that big accomplishment! Yeah

I had feelings of not wanting to write after that so it became easy to come up with very valid excuses preventing me from opening the laptop and getting to this page or another document.  Especially the excuse I have nothing to write about.  That one was the most seductive and appealing.  That one is the one that stopped me in my tracks putting up not just resistance but REFUSAL.  I REFUSE TO WRITE TO DAY.  And so guess what I did not write.  The interesting mind body connection of what goes on in my nervous system when i set out with my goal and by week two I am finding ways to discard it.  I see this pattern repeat often in my life and perhaps no wonder I struggle with progressing beyond my comfort zone.  I am much more aware and I have the tools to adjust it.  I started 2 laser tapping session with friends and / colleagues to shift the REFUSAL around goals that I set.  Interestingly after tapping with good friend Madison several hours later my boss at NR sent me a text she always emails asking if I could work on Monday.  I had been worried that  my hours were dwindling to 12 hours a week from 24.  So of course I was delighted because as I ramp up my coaching business I certainly need to continue to support myself.  I was so thrilled to have the extra day of income.  It will really help and bring me out of panic mode which is always flight fight freeze reaction. With that out of the way I can attend to to my GB group and continue with the content for FT website, sales page, blog and landing page and funnel.

I was reading about creating the x-factor statement really called a UPS (unique position statement) wow that was overwhelming.  It sound similar to captivate to motivate.  They seem simple concepts but really much more complex.  It is a style of thinking and writing that taxs your brain at first not being used to speaking writing this way to an audience.

My professional role of OT for so many years I know intimately my job function.  I know how to pace my self and exactly how much time to spend on certain tasks and it is demanded.  We are given a  patient list with exactly how much time to spend with each patient which  in turn determines how much time is left for writing notes, speaking with family and other staff.  You go beyond on that you get a friendly little email to correct your time management.  It is a system that I don’t have to think about  other than the physical and cognitive piece of the therapy session that can be quite intense.  That being said at the end of a shift I can go home and forget about it and jump into other comfortable things.

The work formula for this business I am creating is much different.  There are some tasks I lke doing and others that I put on the back burner because I don’t know where to start, how to do it, lack the resources.  So then procrastination sets in.  I do what I like to do.  Experimenting with what a work routine might like look.  The beginning will be very different so many pieces to connect.  The work flow is so very different and much more passive than the physical work of being an OT.

I have been playing around pretending I am the employee of my company and identifying what I would  be paying myself for:  for 4 hours a day the expectation is to write for 30 minutes, update group postings 15 minutes, coach at least one to two people , ok day is done rework flow.

Revision for the beginning;  I can come with a whole bunch of tasks and assign time limit.  Put them in jar and pick out 3 a day.  This wonderful idea was shared with me by friend Madison.  I really like that idea and set aside some time .  I expanded to include 4 jars, nutrition and health,  self care activities & fitness, relationship, fun. So the idea is pick 3 work tasks, 2 nutrition, 2 self cae / fitness, 1-2 relationship, 1-2 fun for each day.

Writing for 25 minutes.  Time to shift to create a turbo tapping script for a client.